Ever notice how one problem can lead to a downward spiral? Other problems, known and imagined, come floating forward out of some foggy abyss, appearing persistently and unbidden in your thoughts. “What if…? If only… I should have…” And on and on…
It wasn’t until the bitter end, when the wounded and dying numbers were too great, all hope had been dashed and despair set in, that the defeated army would put up the white flag on the battlefield to signal Surrender.
I know I’ll still be up at 1 am writing today’s magazine. Why? Usually the new issue starts coming to me a week in advance and it is my delight to let the weaving of thoughts escape into a Word doc. Instead I found myself writing the flyer for a near-death talk and channeling…
Last week I had a client who had the same obsession with doing things the “right” or “best” way that I find in myself. Two days later, I had a client who not only had two of my personal physical challenges, but also was impacted in her family by the same physical challenge my sister had that affected my own family life growing up. Three issues in just one client!
This is the story, published in Catalist Magazine (April/May 1997), of the whole traumatic year when my spiritual awareness first began to open. My hope is that it will reassure others experiencing unusual energetic phenomena, possibly avoiding the terror I myself had felt, as I found my skeptical self floundering in a previously unbelievable whole new world.
The only constant in life is change, and my awakening process continued at a relatively rapid rate. By this time the cracks in my reality had gotten big enough for me to literally fall through, into the truth of what is.
It’s not helpful to hear we’re already enlightened, if we can’t find our way to have an experience of it. In the deep place between sleep and awake, I was shown how to get where we’ve always wanted to go, and how we’ve been missing the mark.
As my perception sharpened, I began to see the energetic underpinnings and pathways of pain and discovered a way of being that dissolved its power.
My private session with Amma was the single greatest moment of the whole month in India for me at Golden City’s 21-Day Process.